ex-lion tamer

okay. my life is officially 180 degrees rotated on the vertical axis.

the question is - do i try to get back to where i was?

or do i try and get used to the view?

here’s a question. do you think that most people know what they want and what it would take to make them happy? do you know those things for yourself?

and what would you be willing to risk and willing to let go of to attain those things?

i’m tired past the point of exhaustion of how much of my life has been ruled by fear. how self-limited i am. how much i’ve avoided, denied, stood motionless in the face of, as if frozen in amber.

spiraling around a vortex growing more and more narrow, between the fear and the rage and the shame.

i know these things too well - they have defined me too well. i am confronted with the necessity of making new choices for myself whether i want to or not. i am confronted with the necessity to grow whether i want to or not.

i am truly in a fight for my very survival.

just another day at the office………………..